yay! the topic has gone off!
back from the original topic... for bonnie, i have a close friend who is suffering from that type of dilemma. And I think it's more worst than you are. She's like a distress woman with nowhere to go. She's always saying that she's alone! though I am always at her side, i felt her loneliness or emptiness rather. I hate to say that she has a psychological imbalance but sometimes she becomes so depress that she even have a suicidal tendency. I am always telling her to live her life to the fullest and do whatever she wanted but what makes her not happy is her standard in life and with men.
According to her when she's still young, she have set up a standard on guys which make her pity herself. She's always saying that she wants a guy but - YES, there's always a BUT! she can't free herself from perfection. That's why shes lonely. She never had a guy that will understand her coz of her attitude towards men but I am telling her that someday somebody will gonna love her. Hope so...
Bonnie, do you have this problem in dealing with men?